Photography by Kayte Demont
A couple months ago now, I took a road trip across the country, by myself. I had an intense need for space to breathe and a longing for the Maine ocean, as well as my loved ones. While I was home, I purchased a car with the help of my family and pitched several brands to help sponsor my cross-country road trip with content and marketing packages. It felt amazing to have organized such a large trip by myself and to have put in the planning efforts to make it happen (something that is a challenge for me normally). This was around the time that I quit my day job to go back to freelancing full time. I had set myself up for more positive growth and change.
What was interesting about the road trip is that I was expecting to have really intense and emotional moments. Don’t get me wrong, there were several. Driving 8 hours/ day in a car by yourself with nothing to do but think (and scream and belt out any song you want), really sets you up for some mental processing. The surprise though, was that my brain almost wanted to not think at all. I didn’t feel the need to listen to any podcasts about self-improvement or growth. In fact, that majority of my trip was telling myself that I was allowed to feel free and happy on the road. I was in charge of my destiny for the time being. I was the only one who could help myself when my tires got wonky, I was the only one who was responsible for travel arrangements and feeding myself. I could pick the music, when to stop for food or photos, I was in control. It was a nice change of pace from the constant grind that I had chained myself to as a means of survival for the months prior to the trip.
Here are some things that I learned:
I learned that I overcommitted with what I thought I could accomplish.
I learned that I should get over myself and ask for help.
I learned that love is worth it at all costs and I solidified the belief that my dear friends Phil and Ellie are relationship goals – both with how they treat each other and how they treat their friends.
I learned that I can do things by myself, just like I thought. But damn, it felt good to prove it to myself.
I learned that with each passing day comes a new one and no two days are the same.
I learned that my heart is tied to the ocean and that one day I will return.
I learned that I can’t run away from my problems, I literally drove back to them. But a little break helped. So did a lot of love from my friends and family.
There you have it, a stream of consciousness about how my solo road trip across the country went. It was eventful and uneventful, all at the same time. We can do anything we put our minds to, we just need to believe that it will all work out.
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