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I’ve been fortunate enough to venture to New York City twice this month. In a bittersweet turn of events, one of my best friends Katie moved back to NYC after living in Boston (and residing down the street form my apartment). Thus, it was only fitting that Alex and get down to visit her as soon as humanly possible.

If you follow me on Instagram, you may remember by last visit to NYC was over New Years for a Disclosure DJ set. First things first, that was the most ridiculous thing I have ever seen in my life. Never have I ever seen that many drunken people literally projectile vomitting all over the venue. PSA PEOPLE: If you’re going to drink, control yourself. PSA to myself: never go to a 19+ show on New Year’s Eve and expect anything different.

Moving on, for 2015 one of my goals is to challenge myself and expand my creativity in new and unexpected ways. Another one is to share more of what inspires me/makes me tick.  If you know me personally, I’ve been known to be a perfectionist, sometimes scattered, messy, OCD, particular, enthusiastic and emotional. As you can imagine, these qualities make blogging easy and hard all at the same time. I also think that it’s incredibly important for people to see the real side of the bloggers that they follow. It’s one thing to make people think that they know you (the “you” that is created via what you choose to share on social media). It’s another completely to actually show them the real you. Sorry friends, I’m not going to let you in on my deepest darkest secrets, but I can definitely admit to you that I relate to the daily struggle of being in your 20’s.

I’m weird. I get really self conscious and afraid that every one hates me. I often wonder if I’m a good enough friend. Money is the most stressful thing in my life right now. I know what I want to do for my career but I’m having a hard time keeping the faith and being patient. I don’t understand how some people think, no matter how hard I try to be sympathetic/empathetic. I’ve learned that sometimes the friends that you had in college aren’t your real friends, and sometimes they are better friends than you ever could have imagined. I’ve also learned that it’s okay to not get along with everyone. But that’s not an excuse to be mean. I’ve had my heart ripped out of my chest and the pieces aired out like dirty laundry for all to see. I’ve also found the greatest love of my life and don’t ever plan on letting him go.

The purpose of this NYC photo diary is to show you more of my creative side, more of my personal side, more of the “real me.”  Enjoy the ride and if you can relate, I hope you’ll share in the comments below.

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12 thoughts on “NEW YORK CITY: A PHOTO DIARY

  1. love this! real life is weird, but trust in your plans and stay close to the friends who lift you up! (trying to be inspirational 😉 hope it’s working.) -steph

    • It’s TOTALLY working 🙂 Thanks for reading – loved our coffee date last night xoxo

  2. Kayte – I really enjoyed this post! It’s always refreshing/inspiring/healthy to hear (read) someone’s not-so-perfect, real voice, talking about their real experiences. How else can we connect with one another? Staying true to ourselves and our creative pursuits can be so hard, but it’s heartening to know there are others feeling the same way who are brave enough to share it. Thank you. -SRH

    • Sarah! Thank you so so much for reading and commenting! I’m so happy you found it relatable – I really enjoy your website btw 🙂

      • Thank you! It’s a work in progress, but I’m doing my best to “get out there.” Sharing is powerful!

  3. “Your post hit me like a 1000 bricks. I honestly can’t tell you how perfectly you put it into words:
    I’m weird. I get really self conscious and afraid that every one hates me. I often wonder if I’m a good enough friend. Money is the most stressful thing in my life right now. I know what I want to do for my career but I’m having a hard time keeping the faith and being patient.”

    This goes through my head and my heart about once a day. I don’t care if it’s for a second or a couple hours. I end up wallowing, but I peg myself (and so does everyone else it seems) as such a positive person. Then I get worked up thay I’m allowing such negative thoughts to run wild through me. Did you ever see that article on plants receiving positivity vs negativity? I don’t want to be like a self sabotaging, dying plant. I want to be beautiful like I know we have the potential to be.

    Kayte, you’re one of the most beautiful people I have met yet. Inside and out. I wish that there was a less cliche way to say that. But your smile is contagious and your physically striking. I cam come over to your house upset and tired, and end up leaving psyched for life and happy to have a friend like you. I even appreciate this post more than you know; I’m not alone in these thoughts! I cannot wait to see you, hug you and thank you for all the good you send out to the universe.

    Stay positive babe; it looks good on you.

  4. I love New York City. It’s one of my favorite places in the world. My mom lived there for years. Thanks for linking up to the Best of the Blogosphere Linky Party!

    • Isn’t it magical? Thanks for reading! 🙂

  5. Shannon

    Ugh I love NYC!! My two best friends live there, totally jealous! Looks like you’re having an amazing time!

    <3 Shannon
    Upbeat Soles

  6. New york city is on my list of places I want to visit! Seeing all your gorgeous photos just confirms why I must go there! Thank you for sharing such fun and stunning pictures and giving me a little glimpse into NYC! Thanks so much for linking up to the #bestoftheblogosphere linky party!

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